Thought I publish one more post,

that the year is coming to an end.

Read finished Safe Haven by Sparks a couple of nights ago,

in less than three hours.

(Salad says I read fast, law school has trained me well heehee)

Beautiful read as usual,

I love Sparks,

he makes me such a hopeless romantic.

I really really don't want school to start.

): ): ):

I look at how happy I've been the last month,

and I think of how everything's gonna be taken away from me in less than a week.

Nooooo...

December always makes me feel like a different person living a different life;

Mom's fault that I'm not at the dinner at Jarold's now.

):

Her selfishness leaves me speechless.

Apart from the horrible ending,

the day was good.

FACT's Annual Christmas get together cum CherylKoh's birthday celebration in the afternoon.

Lunch at Wild Honey,

though I would opine it isn't as fantastic as raved.

Definitely not worth the wait,

though it is still good food.

Spent the other half of the day / night with Zijie.

He treated me to an all expense paid trip to Singapore Island Country Club,

not that it was paid by him.

Hahahah, but I appreciate the thought,

he claims it's his inheritance.

Had dinner at the restaurant there and we went bowling after.

Good food, good company, good fun.

Tomorrow's (Technically today) the last day of twenty eleven!!

Feels weird not spending it with the small group at Yaanmeng's this year.

I'm meeting dear Grace for lunch and there's watch night service in the evening.

Goodbye Twenty Eleven!!!!

Maybe law school is better because it takes up all my energy,

it leaves me with none to be disappointed with the family.

I can never be the best daughter no matter how hard I try,

maybe I should just stop trying.

It's like nothing I do can ever be good enough.

You know there comes a point of time when I become so indifferent towards relationships,

and then I stop trying to do anything about them.

Is understanding and appreciating really that difficult?

Too much to ask for?

Can anyone not love sleeping?

The thought of school starting in less than two weeks scares me,

honestly.

Anyway the days have been good apart from the fact I'm having a cold today and I'm waiting in fear every second for the man whose car I scratched to call me.

High-tea with Esther and Michelle at Max Brenner on Monday to discuss plans for God's People in the coming year,

stopped by the Logos Hope ship as well.

Dinner at The Wine Company at Evans Lodge to celebrate Margaux's 19th afterwards.

Happy birthday beautiful.

(:

Lunch at The Ship yesterday to celebrate Joel's birthday with the family.

It's always The Ship cos the mother really likes that place cos it's been around for the longest time.

Dinner at Holland with part of the Steamboat gang after.

I was too full from lunch so I didn't eat much.

Jon joined us for supper later.

And today is stay home Wednesday because I've been out to much,

and I'm ill (sort of) today.

So there's plans for lunch with Grace and PwC Christmas Party tomorrow,

FACT Christmas get together cum CherylKoh's birthday celebration on Friday,

and maybe Wicked and watch night service on Saturday.

I guess that's the end of 2011 for me,

it's indeed been the most impressionable year in a really long time.

The sun cannot compare to the glory of Your love;

I don't quite remember having an identical christmas.

Needless to say this year's was great as well,

though it was with much less hype.

Just the usual Christmas party at Kelly's with the 4D mates and friends on Friday,

Annual Christmas eve dinner at the Aunty's on Saturday,

and church this morning.

Spent the day with Salad and Glenn.

We caught Mission Impossible 4 and walked around town quite a lot then they crashed my place and I drove them over to Chermaine's for a bit and finally home.

On another note,

let us always remember that Christmas isn't about the pretty lights, the endless conversations, the presents under the Christmas tree, the sumptuous food, the favourite season,

but of You the greatest gift that was given to us.

<3

Let our lives be an anthem of Your love.

I have the best oldest brother ever.
Scratched his car against another last night and he didn't even scold me.
):
I feel so bad.

And you know what,
his license plate number came out for second prize in 4D today.
Why didn't I buy yesterday?
)':

Midnight grocery shopping;

Drove out with Salad past 1am last night to buy groceries for the Christmas party tomorrow.

Slept only at 6am.

):

Sadly, their lack of appreciation / ungratefulness still bugs me after a thousand years.
Sometimes, I don't even know why I still bother to put in so much efforts to plan things for them.
Sigh.

Oh well, let's just hope tomorrow will be worth it.

(:

I love my bed, period.

Feels good to have packed and cleaned up my entire (well almost) room!!
Haven't done house work in a thousand years,
but I vacuumed the floor, mop the floor, decorated my wall, packed my bags, hanged my clothes, washed the clothes, changed the bed sheets, also washed the bed sheets and fixed up a new table.

Never knew doing housework could be so tiring,
all the reasons why I don't want to be a house wife next time.
(Y)

Packed my room yesterday and fixed up a new study table,
with the help of the brother.
Tahah attempts at preparations to study harder next semester after the disappointments from this.

Love the oldest,
he's always damn nice to me.
Dinner at this Penang diner at Coronation later,
serves really good Penang food at affordable prices.
He treated us (Salad, Zijie and myself) to dinner
Desserts and chilled a bit at Rail Mall later.

Dinner with the Aunty and sister at PS cafe later,
and desserts at Brunetti.
Oh dear, I'm growing fat during the holidays too.
):

Oh I forgot to mention I fell ill during church camp,
came down with stomach flu? / food poisoning? and I kept puking not stop.
And because of which I missed CherylKoh's 21st.
):
So sad.
Sucks to be ill.

So that all may see and give God all the glory;

It's been the most mixed of emotions the past five days.

From sadness, to tiredness, to sickness and ultimately joyfulness.

Church camps are always the best,

because they always get me thinking.

Thinking of His grace and faithfulness,

despite my unworthiness and inadequacies.

More importantly, of dedicating yet another year to come to Him.

At times, I feel really ashamed of myself.

Because even though I've often said that I surrender everything to Him,

I still rely on my own strength to get by.

When disappointments come, I question.

I keep focussing on the sufferings that I've been going through that I failed to see the blessings He has given me as well.

I keep being the person that grieves Him.

But it shouldn't be that way,

because extreme surrender means praising God in good times and in bad times,

thanking God when things don't go the way I want it to,

and trusting completely in His sovereign plans for me.

And looking back at this year,

I know there are many times when I haven't been the best friend / daughter / sister / leader / student / teacher and you know just the person to those I'm around.

But I've always wanted to be that better person.

Yet I've been stubborn, I've been ungrateful, I've hurt, I've complained, I've neglected, I've allowed the things of this world to get the better of me.

And these long list of things could go on forever.

But you know what's so amazing?

Through it all, and as undeserving and insignificant as I am,

He has sustained me, forgiven me and loved me,

and it brings so much joy within me,

so much so that it's indescribable and overflowing.

Indeed, He is my joy unspeakable, love unfailing, author and perfecter of my faith.

<3

I did so badly for semester one,

I'm not sure what to feel.

I've lost my matriculation card and I can't seem to log on to Oasis.

Nooo.....

For the record, the holidays have been going great.

As much as I can remember,

dinner with the S28 girls on Wednesday and stay over at Cordelia's after.

We had Two Chefs for dinner,

oh yes and I baked at Zhengyi's before that.

Those girls are so cute, they said I needed to reach my annual bridge quota so we played so many games.

Annual Christmas Dinner with Corinne, Nicolette and Julia on Thursday.

It's like festive season gone wrong cos we had a steamboat dinner and we played mahjong.

But who cares, best company ever,

I love those girls so much.

<3

More bridge and spades too.

Had lunchie with Wanting, Nicolette and Corinne on Friday,

I haven't met Wanting for a thousand years and it was really nice seeing her too.

(:

Anyway I've been in KL the past couple of days.

The littlest brother is having his bowling tournament again.

Shopping has been good,

almost forgot what retail therapy feels like.

Cheap food making me grow fat(ter?),

I drove up to KL!

Met up with Qabir today,

his house is so freaking pretty.

And yes that's basically it,

my holiday.

Didn't realise what desperate need I was in for a holiday until today.

Glad I came for this short getaway.

I'll be back tomorrow,

possibly to do some readings for next year (IKR.), maybe meet up with Lydia for Kbox and supper with the PwC colleagues.

And then there's YM camp from 15th-18th.

So yes, I'll be kept pretty much busy til then.

So many people to meet up with still but so little time,

sigh.

I dreamt about Contract results last night and it got released this morning.

I should've watched Facing the Giants a long time ago,

I've been missing out on so much all these while.

It's so so good.

Funny how I've got more time to write here during school days.

The weekend's been.. normal.

Friday was well spent because I met up with Amanda and Salad after a thousand years.

Seemed like just yesterday we had Christmas time in the city last year and it's a new year already.

Bridged and supper with Salad, Glenn and Nathanael after,

the brother very kindly lent me the car for the night.

Saturday was bad because I quarreled with the family,

met Zijie later that night to rant.

Today was better because I met the old buddies after a thousand years,

Alastair still makes me laugh til my tummy aches,

he is so retarded.

Happy birthday TITUS!! (:

Oh I got a haircut as well.

That's about it.

I missed Fenny's niece 1 year old party though because it got pushed back to the evening.

):

Busy week / month ahead.

Currently there's lunch with Margaux and Qabir at Holland followed by dinner with Grace at Coro on Monday.

Movie with Chermaine, Nathanael and Shwee on Tuesday followed by YM camp meeting in the evening.

Wednesday's reserved for the JJ girls.

Thursday's for Annual Christmas Dinner with the best girlfriends.

And Friday's bible study in the evening for now.

Then I might just go up to KL with the family from 10th-13th.

YM camp's from 14th-18th.

CherylKoh's 21st on the 17th.

Christmas party with the 4D mates on 23rd.

And more christmas parties to come in the later half of the month.

Ohmygoodness, typing out everything just made me realised how packed my December is.

How am I suppose to do my readings?

):

Nooo..

If you are my dear friend and I forgot to meet up with you,

please let me know.

WE NEED TO MEET UP.

(:

Reasons why I can never drink coffee:

It keeps me up all night, way past 4.36am.

I'm holding out for a hero til the end of the night;

After exams have been good,

not that I've been catching up with the ones that I should,

that will come,

but that I've not been bugged down by school work.

Today was particularly good because I met up with so many people.

Lunch with the Mommy, the littlest brother and the sister,

followed by an afternoon well spent with my movie buddy Glenn.

I've missed how we used to watch and talk about all the rubbish ever.

Army and university got us busy,

hang in there friend.

Oh we had Starbucks because they were having 1-for-1 today.

Met up with Lydia and Penny after for some Kbox,

singing makes the soul feel good.

I've missed how I used to be so close to Penny back in the PwC days.

):

Finally, for dinner with the LTB mates at Adam Road Food Centre,

the so-good Nasi Lemak stall was close.

But we had pretty good Murtabak, Roti John, Maggi Goreng and Beehoon Goreng,

compliments from Hasisha's Dad's stall.

Oh yes, I think they serve pretty decent and reasonable priced fruit juice too!

Desserts at Island Creamery after.

Crim results are gonna be out tomorrow morning,

I'm am so freaking scared.

Why.